Saturday, May 9, 2009

Ayana's Birthmother...

I would like to say Happy Mother's day to Ayana's birthmother. I have been thinking about her a lot this week. I am going to try to get some of my feelings down in a letter. It might be random but I try to write uncensored with pure thoughts. Forgive me, if it turns out scattered.

Dear Y,

Words can't even do justice the joy I feel from having Ayana as my daughter . I will be eternally grateful for the gift that you have given to us. I pray for you and I think of you often. I wonder what you are feeling and where you are sleeping tonight.

I feel a permenant bond to you even though I have never met you. You will always be remembered. I promise to never let Ayana forget you and her beautiful mother country.

I want you to know that I will be there for Ayana in good and bad times. I will be there for her in her first steps taken to the steps she takes as she walk down the isle at her wedding and all the way, you will be with us, like footprints in the sand.

Happy Mother's day to the mother who made the ultimate sacrifice when Ayana was just 40 days old. Because I can't hug you myself, I pray that you can feel God's arms wrapped around you in the warmest embrace letting you know Ayana is loved and cared for. Happy Mother's day!

Love and gratitude,
Amber (Ayana's 2nd mom)


12 comments:

Psalm112 said...

Amen!

Angela said...

That's very heart felt Amber. I pray that her mother is able to feel your spirit and know that Ayana is loved and cherished.

dan and rachel said...

beautifully written, amber!

what an amazing gift that you can give ayana by choosing the embrace and respect her birth mother.

happy mother's day!

Mona said...

I have chills - and tears in my eyes.

Meg DeZutti said...

Oh Amber, thank you for putting into words the thoughts of all of us ETH mamas this Mother's Day. I hope that all of our children's birth mothers feel the love you have sent out to Ayana's first mom.
Bless you.

Kelly said...

How sweet and beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

Domestic Goddess said...

What a beautifully written letter, the thought of the sacrifice she made brings tears to my eyes. When I look at that beautiful baby girl I realize just how hard of a choice she had to make and what she gave up. But she did it out of love, to give her a better life and I am more than positive she would be so relieved to know that Ayana is in your arms and is loved beyond words. Thank you for sharing your heart, I loved every bit of reading your letter. I love you! Thanks for being the best Mum EVER! You have brought so much to my life and I am thankful for you daily. I can't wait to get to Dallas to hug you!!!!!

nancy said...

thank you, amber. i think all of us with adopted kids can so relate. the ultimate gift....

Leah Reeves said...

That is beautiful. We are given the most precious of gifts from these Mothers.

~Leah

sparkz said...

She is so cute! Happy Mothers Day.

ag said...

beautifully written...you are very deserving of this precious gift. I love that you are honoring the birth mom, and really Ayana too, in every way by including her (as much as you can by spirit!).

Lisa and David said...

Amber,
I could actually copy that letter as I feel the exact same way. You so eloquently wrote what I would want to say to Tigist's Mother. What a gift we have.

You look really beautiful as does Ayana. Your shorter hair cut looks adorable.
Hugs,
Lisa